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I can't believe it, but I have just uncovered a new sin I have been committing for a long time, and I never even knew it: GLUTTONY!
On January 1st of this year, I began fasting every Friday in reparation for the sins of my past life. Although there are some points on those days when I feel bad (which is partly the point!), I have had no problem carrying on my normal activities, even without eating. The hardest thing has been remembering not to eat, because I normally do it so mindlessly, and always have. I think a lot of Americans do this, frankly--as if it's our God-given right, LOL!
This finally drew my attention, and I started thinking about eating in general. The purpose of eating has to be to fuel your body so that you can live, right? So I suddenly wondered whether eating when you are not really hungry could possibly be considered sinful. I looked it up (thank you, Internet!) and guess what? YES, it comes under the category of gluttony.
I was totally shocked; I always thought gluttony was eating to terrible excess, such that you practically made yourself sick: I never knew that what I have been doing for my entire life is also gluttony. What a revelation!
When I consecrated my life to God in November, right after returning to the Church, it caused an incredible transformation in me: I am on fire for the Lord, to the degree that it is almost unbearable. I now understand what the evangelicals mean when they use the phrase, Born Again, because that is exactly how I feel. One of the results is that I am unable to knowingly sin, so now that I realize that what I have been doing with food is sinful, I have to stop--and I have already.
It is going to take a great deal of concentration in order to avoid this sin, because I am not used to ever thinking about whether I am really hungry or not---but I hope that in time, it will become second nature and I won't have to be constantly vigilant about it. +
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